Whispers of the Heart

Have you ever felt like you need a break? Just you n yourself to some getaway where you can just escape from the probs in life? STOP RITE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!! Okeyh, cut! Don't get me wrong here... I'm not a tourism promoter :D

I'm right now talking about the space between friends. What is it that will make a friend bored of a friend? I've wondered for quite sometime. Friends don't really exist do they? Cos' friendship seems to be in some TV dramas where friends stick wit ya thru it all. But reality is harsh... the more you stick to your friends, d more space they'll need. I had been stucked to someone and by someone and I know that d feeling sux. Leech~ ahax! So i learnt a lesson ;) And that's "NEVER NEVER be stuck or depend on your friends too much cos it'll hurt you back". Huhuhu... (T_T) Oh yeah, platonic friendship? They do exist... but it'll end in 2 ways - (marriage / destruction) so beware~

Happy Friendship Day!!!!! (whnever that is~)

I thought I planned a perfect future ahead

Who’d guess I was too much of a coward

I was too naive to only see the good

I was blinded by my dreams

Little did I know I am walking away from you

#          So please prevent me from falling deeper

But don’t break my heart too much

Cause my soul can’t bear the pain

Strengthen me and help me stand on my feet

As I lead my life and move on as a big girl

It was my fault to just live life at its present

I never thought further than what I planned

Guess deep down inside of me

There’s a fear that grows each day

The fear of turning my head away from you

Bridge: I promise you once that I’d be only yours

And the thought of breaking it

Is tearing me slowly apart and confusing me

Guide me back to the right path

I wrote this lyrics in ten minutes but I am still figuring the tune to go along with it... Hopefully, I'll be able to think up of something a.s.a.p. LOL. Im afraid the meaning of this lyrics cannot be revealed until the time is right. It has nothing to do with my love life though~ Ahax!

I kinda had a burnout problem due to the exams (that finally ended last week), and the tonnes of lab presentations (went to a hell lot of preparations for it) dat we did on Monday, not to mention the visit to the Perodua factory on Wed morn (tiring~). Since I had d knack of gettin' sick (due to burnouts)... (cough*) i just couldn't join d MOTIVATION CAMP at Pangkor from Wednesday til Sunday (5 days~didn't i already get enuf motivation?!?!?) Pardon me for my rudeness and sense of "whineyness" (is dat even a word?). Anyway, its just too bad I missed that wonderful opportunity...(cough*) but right now, I damn need a peace of mind hmmm...perhaps i shud take up yoga or smth~

Anyway, I admit d harsh fact (ouch*) that I AM a person with a weak heart~ (T.T) Im the kind dat love~ the gentle calls of nature n' everything dat is soothing to d mind, body n soul...HOWEVER, it is also a fact that I relax better if its done according to my will n' my time (btw, dis works for almost everyone i know so it's not really part of the "Facts about Me") Now, where was I again? Oh yeah, So if i were to get a vacation on an island (or wherever peaceful), I'd rather wake up late n' do anything anywhere at anytime~ than follow "a certain" timetable. I mean, COME ON! It is a V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N... who dares disagree?

Its dat tyme of d year once more... DURIANS anyone?
Warning: DURIANS are damn tough to open (-.-")

1st attempt

Out of breath

Open up

Had started vlogging... more easier to blog tho~ :p Lotsa positive points n oso negative points in vlogging n blogging. Mebe vlogging will work out better for those who can speak naturally in front of d cam, n being photogenic is a plus for vloggers, too. ( Not trying to sell myself short, but i dun think im one of those people)

Anyway, I'll still make vlogs in spite of that tiny fact just now, for my own personal leisure, n for my friends (who are bak in my hometown or studying abroad - oh, i miss you all) to see. Kinda like a way to keep in touch wit me;)And no, its not a publicity stunt cos some ppl tend to misunderstand my vlog due to their lack of humour n oh, whatever~ I dun give a damn (^o^)b

As for blogging, it saves time cos u dun hafta encode & upload vids into youtube...especially when im near exams rite now~ (T.T) So i guess i'll update my blog more than my vlog...ahax! Cheers VOX!!!

Last week my whole batch n I, we attended smth like a national-motivational camp... Its purpose? To let us know more about our country and hopefully, love our country more~ Here's a brief scenario of how it all went:

Before:
          - was damn nervous about it...had d worst case scenario in my head  (thought it wud be similar 2 an army camp)
During:
          - fun outdoor games n activities thru out d camp
          - 6 delicious meals, i mean "feasts" a day
          - quizzes that made me realize how little i know about my country (T.T) embarassing*
          - made nice frens from other campuses
          - had group discussions dat enables u 2 speak out ur mind
          - the kindest facilitators u wud ever wished for
After:
          - "experience" level up
          - "knowledge" gained
          - "patriotism" increased
          - "curiosity to learn more" overflowing
          - "satisfaction" full

All in all, it was an unforgettable experience!!! Too bad we didn't manage to take much pics tho... n lastly, I do hope I pass the test... worried* (T.T)

Alrite, Im holding a grudge against my beloved hamster, Bibi, alright (>.<)... I seriously, seriously haf x idea what's wrong wit her. Maybe its PMS or maybe she's an adult, Oh, I dun care! She's different from before, and she transformed her personality in just a night!!! WTF? Here's a brief log on our activity b4 she changed into a monster!

                                           3rd June 2008